Three Love Stories: Crumpled

Previously…

Finally, I had the guts to break the silence.

 “X, pwede bang… ako na lang mag-decide para sa’tin? Pwedeng… huwag na lang?” I asked with the last three words almost like a whisper

 There was a long pause. And…

 “Yun din nga sana sasabihin ko”

 

It’s almost ten o’ clock in the evening at nandito pa rin ako sa Wendy’s Dapitan. I went here straight after what happened at Baywalk. I still didn’t want to go home so I stayed here instead. An order of regular-sized fries and frosty kept me company as I tried to hold back the tears.

Chynna kept on texting me telling me to go home already. That X never deserved any feelings I have for him. That he doesn’t have a back bone and he’s such a chicken.

Wala na akong matandaan sa mga reply ko. Ang tanging rumerehistro na lang sa utak ko ay ang kanyang pagsang-ayon sa desisyon ko. “Yun din nga sana sasabihin ko”  Paulit-ulit na nag-pplay ang eksena sa utak ko na para bang pirated dvd. At paulit-ulit din na tila pinupunit ang puso ko nang isang milyong piraso.

 

***

Tanghali na ako nagising pero pakiramdam ko kulang pa rin ang tulog ko. Ayoko na sanang tignan ang mukha ko sa salamin. Alam ko naman kasing bakas pa rin dun ang nangyari kagabi. Sh*t! Naalala ko na naman… Ang sakit talaga…

Lalabas na sana ako ng kwarto para maligo nang makita ko ang aking cellphone. I even hesitated for a second to get it. But at the end, kinuha ko pa rin. Ang dami ko palang unread messages. Puro kay Chynna. May isa galing kay X. Di ko alam kung bakit pa siya nag-text pero ayoko rin alamin. So, message deleted agad without even reading. After all, I’d better unwind kesa mabaliw nang nagmumukmok dito sa bahay.

***

Nagkita kami ni Chynna at nag-decide mag-videoke sa may bandang Lacson. Walang gaanong tao kaya para bang arkilado namin ang lugar. And as expected, umulan ng mga heart breaking senti songs sa lugar.

Sandali lang kaming nagkantahan at nag-emote ni Chynna. Pero malupit ang sandaling yun. Songs sang were: “How could you say you love me”, “Dadalhin”, “Torn”, “I Love You Goodbye”, “Before I let You Go”, at di ko na matandaan ang iba pa. Unwind talaga kami. Pero she just checked on me lang daw. Siyempre, I hid my suffering from her. Ganoon ako. I don’t want anyone to see me when I’m suffering.

Pag-uwi sa bahay akala ko I’ll be fine already. Pero hindi. I felt so hollow. It even feels like everything in me stopped functioning. I still breathe but I felt lifeless like my heart stopped beating. Everything became dull. Everything became meaningless.

To be continued…

 

 

 

3 Responses to “Three Love Stories: Crumpled”


  1. 1 Ax March 19, 2009 at 11:22 am

    wow. kaso to be continued. hehe..!

    oks ang artic mo!

  2. 2 sortinghat March 20, 2009 at 2:14 pm

    interesting…i just read the series up to this part. could it be that audrey likes chynna for X? why was she against jane? there must be a good reason. all the while i thought chynna would be the contravida. turns out, she’s one heck of a friend. caring for jane and all. and X? chynna’s advices are turning out to have a basis after all. it really intrigues me why audrey was acting so peculiar about the whole X and jane thing.

  3. 3 amir April 20, 2009 at 4:24 pm

    tanks…
    it’s very nice


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