Previously…
“But, I was not able to finish the article that time for two main reasons. One, I was distracted by Y’s presence. I don’t know why he has that effect on me… Two, I simply wanted to have dinner with him so I intended not to finish the article.”
Ever since I started to be confused of my feelings towards Y, I always spend my free time thinking why I felt that way and why I shouldn’t. I thought that through this, I could easily disgard any feelings that’s starting to blossom for him. I tried to make a list in my head of things why I shouldn’t fall for him. After all, it will just be easy to think of them coz I got a boyfriend to be my baseline. Well, I guess I expected that much…
Reasons Why I Shouldn’t Fall for Y
- He is too old for me. My boyfriend is a year younger than me and it has been quite an issue already.
What more if I fall for someone who is almost the same age as my kuya? But wait, age doesn’t matter in matters of the heart, right? And… Hey! Why am I already thinking of committing with him? Erase that one…
- He is too thin. I want a man who has a well-built body (doesn’t necessarily mean all muscles – biceps, triceps, etc.). That factor is important for me because I believe that a man should be strong and physically capable enough to protect his girl. So definitely, he won’t qualify coz he looks too fragile to fight for me with his built.
- He is not fluent in Tagalog. Since he’s from Cebu, it’s difficult for him to talk in Tagalog. When he does, he sounds like he’s barking with a fellow dog. But when he speaks in English, especially on the phone…
Damn! He sounds so sexy! Ooops… Delete that one again. (Get a grip Jane!)
- He has a lot of girl – friends. Well, I saw his Friendster account and he’s got a lot of girls commenting (flirting) with him. It’s not that I can’t handle the competition (if there would be any), it’s just that I AM POSSESSIVE. When I declare that someone’s mine, I don’t want to share him with anyone. Not that I want him to be mine…
- I HAVE A BOYFRIEND. I can’t fall for him coz I’m still in a relationship – even if I hardly see X now. I’m not the type of girl who who does multi-tasking when it comes to having a relationship. I’m not a two-timer and I’m not planning to be one.
So after coming up with a very short list, what have I found? Was I enlightened? Hmmm… Well, I still do not have any conclusions but I have a theory now. Maybe I’m just attracted to Y because I hardly see my boyfriend anymore. Maybe I long for my boyfriend’s hugs and kisses. And…
Maybe I’m wrong.
To be continued…
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